I fucking hate this shit day. Everyone is just so happy and talkative. but when i talk i get cut off or talked over. Like bing bang bong fuck yall. my sister with her boyfriend who im not fucking with right now. close minded ass. I feel like he be judging And my mom being passive aggressive. And then my grandma trying to see the good in the pile of shit that revolves around the sun. And my dad well he just here. Fuck this shit let me stay in my room alone before i ruin another fucking holiday. I tried to call a few friends for with wish them a happy thanks giving and just get foward to voice mail. Like fuck i just want to heard. like dam…. i guess not. my place will always be at the kids table seen and hot heard.  like im so happy i went out to the edm event last night i had a blast all my by self. like what the fuck is the reason for having relations with people It just dumb as fuck. you always end up disapointed and hurt. Why the fuck did i move back home. and i still got xmas to get threw. and a bitch might not make it… this feels like when i would be alone slaming lines of coke that numb uncormftable feeling, that traps your voice in your own head. you want to say something but the numbness prevents it. idc if this hurts people feelings. and to the people saying oh your with family its beatiful like stfu we are all fucking diffrent. I have issues as you can see im just venting before i say some off the wall thanks giving shit. 

urlocalwhoree:

g1r go brrr